Freelance Lifestyle + Mental Health

I’m currently at home in Portland for a couple days after a 3 week travel stint and getting ready to leave again on Friday for another one in SE Asia. Life is so so busy lately, and I can’t complain that I’m #BookedtAndBusy but it’s honestly a LOT. The intersection of being a full time freelance photographer and being a full time human being is something I’ve been thinking about quite a bit lately. I used to not notice the toll my job took on me, because I do ultimately see myself as living a dream life; I work for myself, I get paid to travel and take photos, I work with the most amazing brands and artists! It honestly is the best, and I wouldn’t trade what I do for anything. But recently, I’ve been paying closer attention to how I feel after overworking myself (as I have these past few months): exhausted, uninspired, drained, somewhat depressed, and most of all, lacking a lot of meaningful connections.

Don’t get me wrong, I have friends, I love being booked, my life is great, etc. But for example, I have a super hard time dating or meeting guys since I’m never in a city for more than week. And I love my friends, but they live all over the place and I only ever see them in short bits here and there (I have constant FOMO). Also, I’m paying rent for a beautiful apartment that’s basically a glorified storage unit since I’m rarely home. Learning to balance these things and take care of myself has been hard, since not many people I know live the same lifestyle I do, and can’t relate. I wanted to make a blog post about this though, for freelancers like myself; photographers, youtubers, bloggers, touring crew members, digital nomads, and anyone else who might be feeling a little lost about how to deal with burnout and balancing your work and social life. Here are some things that have helped me so much!

  1. Exercise + Sleep + Water
    These things seem basic, as they should, but they literally can improve your entire day. When I’m regularly working out (whether it’s at my spin class/gym at home, or a hotel gym on the road) my body feels better and I can literally notice the endorphin rush affecting my mood. Yoga, spin class or a good weightlifting session are my faves. I try to get a workout in every morning when possible, even if it’s quick, to prevent bloating and energize me for the day. And drink so much water!!! Water is life. Clears your skin, flushes toxins, and being well-hydrated combats any coffee/alcohol consumption from ravaging your body too badly.

    Admittedly, I don’t sleep as much as I should when I’m on work trips (sometimes ya girl really do be running on like 4 hrs of sleep for a 14 hr day), but catching up on my zzz’s at home is a sweet recovery and always has me feeling refreshed for whatever the next trip is. When I’m home, I try to get 8-9 hrs.

  2. Put Down Your Phone
    It’s literally SO hard for me to get off my phone. Instagram is like 50% of my job, and Twitter is the only thing that makes me laugh, but taking a break for a few hours, or just cutting down on screen time in general has really improved my mental health so much. I find that when I’m on social media too much, my FOMO really hits because I miss my friends, or I start comparing myself or my life to some random insta-baddie which is just ridiculous. Staring at my own Instagram posts for too long also makes me become critical and hate everything about my work, which is just not a good mindset to have and contributes quickly to periods of burnout. If I want to stare at something, I’ll put on a TV show or read a book for a few hours to chill out and clear my head.

  3. Managing Deadlines and Work
    I normally set “working hours” for myself when I’m home, so I get things done efficiently, but I don’t fall into the freelancer “i’m available 24/7” trap. To-do lists are also amazing and really help keep me on track - I write all of mine out with a pen and paper, because I feel like it makes me remember everything more and plan more efficiently. On a typical in-home work day I write invoices, shoot brand campaigns, and answer emails from 10 to noon, take a break to work out and eat, and go back to editing photos, answering more emails, and doing whatever else needs to be done for my day from about 2 to 6pm. This schedule varies based on if I have booked portrait sessions, errands to run or anything else to do, but it’s pretty standard. After 6 it’s dinner, going on social media, going to events, hanging with friends, or watching Netflix. Remember not to over-commit yourself: saying no is okay!

    Setting time limits is SO important for freelancing. I only recently started doing this because I was overbooking myself to the point that I would have so much to do and not enough time, or I found myself doing all my emails at like 4pm on a Friday. Now my workflow is way more manageable and efficient, and I don’t feel like a crazy person.

  4. Spend Time with Friends
    I always, always, always, make time for my friends. I honestly do get pretty lonely when I’m home by myself or on work trips by myself, so my friends keep me sane! I have 3 distinct friend groups in the places I live and spend the most time, all of which have such a special place in my heart. My Portland friend group is small, but I have probably the best connection with them since I see them IRL the most - we go out to eat a lot, go to events and grab drinks together, and my best friend Candace helps me shoot a lot of my IG photos. My LA friends really “get” my lifestyle and what I do, and they’re always supporting me and letting me crash at their houses when I’m in town, which I appreciate beyond words. We definitely party hard (and we brunch harder), and a lot of my LA friends are models and influencers that I shoot with as well, so us spending time together is super productive. My NYC friends are my closest soulmates but I definitely see them less - maybe 4-5 times a year. However, we have a wildly active group chat that’s thriving 24/7, which keeps us all updated on each other’s lives.

    These moments I have with friends are often kind of fleeting, but it’s so nice to know that wherever I am there are always supportive people in my life that I can text, call and come home and hang out with. The FOMO is definitely real but I have to remind myself that I’m doing what I love and sometimes that means missing some moments - but there will always be more! My friends and I will often schedule vacations together or set aside certain times to hang out, which keeps a great structure so I know it won’t be too long until I see them. I’m also always meeting new people through work and I try really hard to make those connections solid. Drake said no new friends but I’m ignoring that one.

  5. Treat Yo Self
    Last point, and the most important: take care of yourself! Self-care is one of the most grounding things I apply to my everyday. Beyond drinking water and sleeping, think face masks and body scrubs, silk pillowcases, a glass of wine or pint of ice cream, educational podcasts, sitting down to read Cosmo, getting your nails done, a healthy meal, going for a walk and getting some sun. Sometimes I get so lost in my whirlwind of shooting, hours of editing, and feeling like shit after long plane rides that I get out of this routine and just become a messy blob. I’m wired to work and hustle all the time and I also find it REALLY difficult to spend money on myself, but I always have to remember that A) a lot of these things don’t cost much and B) I deserve it! I work hard and taking the time for a treat here and there is absolutely merited.

Anyway, I hope this was helpful to anyone living some weird out of the box life like myself. Even if you work a 9-5, I feel like these general tips can be applied to anyone’s life! Moral of the story is pay attention to your feelings, and take care of your body + mind cause it’s the only one you have.

Travel: Tulum, Mexico

This past March, my best friend Candace invited me to crash her family trip to Tulum for her birthday. Tulum is one of those places I'd always seen on Insta and dreamed of going to, so I was super excited at the chance - and I'd NEVER been to Mexico before (somehow I've been literally around the world and never gone to Mexico wtf). Needless to say, it was so, so magical and everything I'd hoped it would be. I fell in love with Mexico's vibrant culture, nature, and people. This little town is such a hidden gem, and it's truly one of those places everyone needs to visit.

 Mermaid vibes at the Grand Cenote in Tulum, Quintana Roo.

Mermaid vibes at the Grand Cenote in Tulum, Quintana Roo.

 One of the many cute little corners of Tulum.

One of the many cute little corners of Tulum.

Getting There:
I booked my ticket through Delta - the flight was Portland to LA to Cancun. Simple enough, and it was only $495 round trip (actually it was free for me cause ya girl had some Delta credit stacked up, but even if I'd paid for it, that's a steal for an international flight that far). It took about a day to get to Cancun, and once I got there we spent the night at a cute little hotel in the center of the city before venturing to Tulum the next day. 

To get to Tulum from Cancun, there's a 2 hour bus ride which you can take from the Cancun Bus Terminal (or, from the airport, as we later learned). It cost roughly $20 USD, and the bus was pretty nice, air conditioned, and was full of tourists just like us. The buses are scheduled the same time every day, so you can also buy advance tickets for your return back to Cancun.

Where To Stay
There are two main options when booking accommodations in Tulum - the beach, of course, and a new development called Aldea Zama. While the beach is ideal for relaxing and taking instas, most of the beachfront hotels do not have wifi and cost an arm and a leg. Aldea Zama however, is right down the street from the beach (it was roughly a 10 min drive every day), and all of these hotels are fancy AF apartment-style hotel suites with wifi, A/C, and private pools and they're way cheaper than beachfront accommodations. We stayed in an awesome hotel slash apartment-building-for-traveling-artists called Arthouse Tulum and it was literally one of my favorite hotels of all time. Gorgeously decorated, spacious, full of quirky art, and there was a whole jungle behind the hotel with a secret path to a giant hot tub and a massage/spa area. All of the staff working in our hotel spoke great English as well, and were able to give us recommendations and directions to tons of places.

Some popular beach hotels to consider are Azulik Tulum, Be Tulum, Una Vida Tulum and Nest Tulum. Again, these are always a little more spendy, but if you're looking to have a luxurious beach vacay nothing beats Tulum beaches. These are also way closer to the popular food spots and little markets. Some of the great hotels in the Aldea Zama area are Prana, KASA, and of course my number one recommendation, Arthouse!

What To See:
Most people go to Tulum to take a relaxing beach vacay, but since we're photographers, Candace and I planned out a whole ass itinerary of everything we wanted to see/do/shoot every day. We planned one activity for each day, and spent the rest of the day chilling at the beach or the hot tub at our hotel! One day we went swimming in the Grand Cenote, the next day we visited Ruinas De Mayas, the next day we wandered down the beach street and took a peek into Casa Malca, and the next day we beach-bar-hopped between some of the hottest spots in Tulum. Definitely recommend the cenotes - they're basically semi-exposed caves filled with fresh water. Amazing for swimming, seeing wildlife (there were BATS) and taking photos. Pro tip: go early to beat the afternoon rush! The ruins were also amazing - it's the remains of a Mayan city on a cliff overlooking the beach. I'd never seen anything like it! Again, going early is key here too because it does get super packed.

 The classic Matcha Mama photo op!

The classic Matcha Mama photo op!

Where To Eat:
There's so much amazing local cuisine in Tulum. Almost everything is traditional Mexican with a bit of tropical/seafood flair. I had the best fish burrito of literally my entire 23 year long life at Burrito Amor. We got breakfast at both Matcha Mama and Raw Love Tulum, which are both acai bowl joints that cater to the plant-based nature of the food in Tulum. Both places are great but I definitely liked Matcha Mama better and they have the cutest outdoor seating space for photo ops. Candace had her birthday dinner at Gitano, which is one of Tulum's most upscale restaurants actually owned by two New Yorkers. The atmosphere is amazing (come before sunset for those fire IG pics) and the food was to die for - we had fresh tuna tostadas, shrimp ceviche, grilled avocados, pulled pork and local vegetables, guava cheesecake, etc. Some other places we loved were Mateo's Mexican Grill (touristy, but their happy hour is LIT and the food is so good), El Pez Nativo (stumbled across this place on a day where everything else was closed, we had lobster tacos that changed us as people), and El Sudaca (empanada stand with the most wonderful staff and some fire empanadas). 

Beach Club Hacks:
Beach areas in Tulum are kind of sectioned off by the hotels and restaurants that line the coast. At some hotels, only guests can access their portion of the beach, but there are several hotels that will just charge a small fee or ask you to buy a drink each hour you stay at their beach. A lot of the inland hotels also have deals with beach clubs though that let their guests go to a certain one for free, so be sure to ask about that at your hotel. Arthouse had a deal with a beachfront restaurant and juice bar called Posada Margherita, so we spent a lot of time lounging in the cabanas there since it was free! Our other fave was Coco Tulum - the drinks and food were bomb and it was such an instagrammable beach. See below for beach club photos :)

Hope these tips inspire some of you guys to travel to Tulum or the surrounding area in Quintana Roo! Seriously one of the best vacation spots. I also felt incredibly safe as an American woman, and we had literally no issues regarding language barriers or cultural situations. The locals in Tulum are so nice and really helpful to tourists, so don't be afraid to ask your cab driver or server for recommendations. :)

Girl Power! x UBER

Growing up, I had some awesome female role models. My mom, teachers, professors, friends and un-problematic celebrities instilled in me not only the idea that women can do anything, but also how to live with positivity and kindness in a way that leads to success. I try to be the best role model I can myself - young girls interested in photography always tell me that I inspire them on the daily, and that warms my heart! I've talked about this countless times, but the way women are STILL marginalized in so many industries can be super unfair and discouraging, especially for girls trying to get their foot in the door. The world could use more positive female icons right now, and lifting up the women in your community is the first step to making that change.

As someone who uses Uber multiple times a day, I'm stoked to know about the internal initiatives, such as Women of Uber and UberHUE, they have instituted to help bolster the careers of underrepresented voices within the company. Their advocacy for the advancement of women and people of color is cool, because the values behind it align with my own and shows me that they also care about people like me. Inclusivity and empowerment is something we should all strive for. 


This post was made in partnership with Uber.


Billboard Music Awards 2018

In partnership with Uber, I attended the Billboard Music Awards in Las Vegas this past weekend. It was an awesome experience to walk the red carpet with a group of bad ass women, and I got to see so many music industry friends and clients at the event as well! It was actually only my second time at an award show, but definitely my favorite so far. I love any excuse to dress up and attend a music event I'm not working at! The staging was super cool, and the atmosphere was really energetic (especially with all the artists' superfans haha!). It was so inspirational to see all of the ladies winning awards and delivering amazing performances throughout the night. I think this year the BBMAs really spoke to the theme of female empowerment - recognizing and celebrating women in the industry for their dedication, hard work and talent. I resonated with this on so many levels because as a woman working in the music industry, you really begin to notice how important girl power is out here! It made me think about all of the awesome girls I've toured with over the years... from artists to tour managers to merch managers and lighting designers, women hold this whole thing together. Love that Uber and the BBMAs put so much emphasis on empowering women for this amazing event. :)

How To: Shooting Product

When I'm not busy being "blackprints" and touring with musicians, I'm living in my home in Portland, Oregon. Being a photographer in Portland means a crazy busy season in the spring/summer, and then a lull during fall/winter when it's pouring rain and no one wants to shoot. So, in order to fill some of my time, I shoot for a lot of brands on the side. Brands love outsourcing content photography because they'll get a new perspective (aka what their in-house photographers maybe can't do), or maybe they just don't have in-house photographers to use for a certain project. But even beyond the paid aspect of shooting for a brand, learning the art of taking good photos of inanimate objects is a huge skill to have as a photographer. I know so many people who can slay a portrait, but can't understand the nuance of "anonymous model" shots (will explain this below). I've done about everything from clothing to cars to food to makeup and hair products, and here are my top 5 tips when shooting products!


1. Perfect The Flatlay
Being able to take thoughtfully arranged, well-lit flatlay photo will get you far, both with picky brands and followers who appreciate an aesthetic image. Flatlays are honestly not my favorite, but it's something I've had to do a lot of because companies love images like this for their socials, since they illuminate product more directly. The best flatlay is subtly branded, with coordinating colors and even lighting. In the photo I took for Hail Merry above, they had specifically asked for a pop of red to match their packaging (which luckily, that month's Vogue cover had the perfect shade for). This is a simple "what's in my bag" style photo I laid out on my bed and shot from above. To minimize shadows and get natural even lighting, I often shoot on my white duvet, in front of the window by my bed.


2. Focus On What Matters
This image was for Devacurl's holiday campaign, and I used a prism and Christmas lights to get those fun rainbow/bokeh effects. However, something to always remember, especially with such a "busy" image, is to make sure that the branding is sharply focused. Especially for items with text on them, blurriness can completely ruin an image. Take your time and make sure text, logos, texture, or other important product features are legible.


3. Anonymous Modeling Is Something You NEED To Learn
I first came across the term "anonymous model" when working with Urban Outfitters. If you take a look at UO's Instagram account, you'll realize that in almost 90% of their clothes-on-model shots, you can't see the model's face. They may be tagged, but if they weren't you wouldn't be able to tell who it is. Anonymous modeling is when the photographer makes the model naturally unrecognizable - this could be through hair flips, cropping, having the model's back turned, etc. These shots are super popular among clothing and jewelry brands (such as the above image I shot for Paul Hewitt), to keep the image's focus on the product, rather than the person wearing it. 


4. Lifestyle Product Images
These are kind of like if a flatlay didn't have to be flat. Lifestyle images show products in use and in a natural environment, but still in a way where the product is the focus of the image. The above shot I took for The Bouqs Valentine's Day campaign was taken in my living room, with their flowers being the main focus but still incorporating other objects and pieces of my life in the photo to give it a more personal vibe. Color matching is huge in product imagery; notice how the pink on the pillows on my couch and Yves Saint Laurent cards on the table match the hue of the roses, and the glow of the candle is similar to the yellow tones in the roses as well. The rest of the image is pretty neutral, to make these colors pop.


5. It Doesn't End With Shooting
Alright, so you've shot your product photos, and you're ready to post them, or send them off to a brand. Uh, no. Editing is a major key of this whole thing; edits should be sharp, clean, bright (unless you've been directed otherwise) and should have that semi-unprocessed, edited-but-not type of finish. Normally I create a set of Lightroom presets for each project I work on, to ensure that all of the images feel cohesive as a bundle. If you're working for a brand, make sure your edits match their style, otherwise they'll probably ask for revisions.

Leave a comment below if you have any more questions related to this topic! :)